GrOwl It
performed in English and German for various soli-festivals (Berlin, Amsterdam et part of the Speak out play) – plain lay out
press
Open
pull it
pump it
pull it
pump it
pull pump rip it out
pull pump spit it out
reOpen
the scars
to extract
the childhood pus
let it gush
did it really happen?
was it your pussy?
do not even think
(no brooding allowed)
watch it
AGAIN
n stop obliterating
the images
of genitalia
hairy or not
revolting all the same
of the young n the old
of all those
who nailed me down
rubbing their dirt
carelessly
to my intimacy
cousins
or fiends
noT really rejected
noT Truly desired
A-B-U-S-E-D
this is abuse
Don’t drink and drive
Don’t rave and rape
huu ah
gimme more
huuh
come on
AGAIN
feel the inconvenience
THE TEARS
i got messed around
WEAK, our flesh is so weak
well, that’s no surprise they say
she’s so … and so…
AGAIN
feel the impurity
the oppression of a lust I m p r O p e r F o u l a W f u l
weighting on my conscience
and my abysses
I so wish
I managed to fIght and bIte
but I licked and cried
fearing even worse
Over and Over
AGAIN
feel the abhorred weight
of drunkenness n misappropriation
thought ineluctable
or kind of mandatory
I take it in
to rebel
against the privilege those jerks took on me
against their reeking clout
I am breathing in
to unlock
my pipes and guts clogged to the bones
with semen n resentment n a thousand oddiousities
swallow till you tip over
I am breathing in to cleanse my matter
to relieve my body-brain
to scrape away the darkness of invading penises
No
No
No
to that foreign bodies invasion
MY FINGER
on debasing memories
MY FIST
on cocky smiles
TRIPLE FUCK
on me and my past
repressed to the spring
of a lust of an ending
of hatred and death
of the coercion coerced
by these pricks
sadists
or simply sense crippled males
deprived of insight and consideration
oblivious to a short word
so tiny but so neat
which stands on its own and
SCREAMS
je vous emmerde
crédit photo: Louise Markise